Refined

We are in a season of change. Devin and I both seem to be taking inventory of our lives right now, focusing on what works, weeding out what doesn't, and prayerfully figuring out how to improve.

Devin is fired up about becoming self-reliant through getting his carpet cleaning company (say that 5 times fast) up and running.

I am trying to be a better girl. Don't get me wrong, I like myself. I have always been a confident gal, but sometimes I feel like little situations start piling up all at the same time to remind me that I might not be as amazing as I think. My head tells me that I'm in a funk. My heart and spiritual knowledge tell me that my Heavenly Father is in the process of refining me.

I inadvertently offended someone with a little joke I said this week and I can't seem to let go of it. I didn't say anything out of the ordinary for me, but the difference was who I said it to. This person doesn't know me very well and seemed very caught-off guard by some of my "witty" comments. I immediately apologized when I got an unexpected response, but I still have that gross feeling in the pit of my stomach.

I was talking to Whitney today via Skype (bless it). I was telling her about my embarrassing experience and she related a similar one to me that she had recently. We King girls know how to make funny observations about people (aka making fun). I know I personally can take that too far. So here is my new goal: to still remain my witty self but without the negativity. I am a daughter of God, after all. Who am I to make fun of my other sisters and brothers in Christ?

Christians are called to be perfect, just like Jesus is perfect. Boy am I glad that perfection is a process and forgiveness is unlimited. Because seriously. Some situations just might come up and I just might not be able to hold back.

But I really will try.


This was the most refined picture I could find.